bad days

Bad days J
gave u my favourite hair band blue and shiny
I thought things would always remain the same

 hands were numb and tiny
yet I put our picture in my hand made photo frame

 innocent was this heart – piece of cake for someone like u to tame
 and bam one day with your selfish words u ended this false game !

disappointed , disheartened but not hopeless
life couldn’t stop this 8 year old  child..
back to being lively , funny and reckless
 probably in the diabolic path of life - such scars are way too mild !

and then u came so sweet and docile ..
such calm eyes and lovely smile
thought probably you were worth the wait..
though you disappointed me too..
but u were one I could never hate..

but u went too
leaving me alone
and thus for ego our friendship was forgone

but life did not end
I found someone who easily could mend
those broken hearts which were shattered parts
and I thought we would never be apart

but ur repairing was for ur best use
being unaware of such views
told you everything that I couldn’t even say to myself
trusted u , cared for u, loved u  and changed myself..
hugged u cause it hurt me when u cried
forgetting that when last night because of your bitterness I nearly died

find ur names in between these line
you could be me or them and still be fine
probably someone killed your innocence someday
and ditched u and perhaps u never ready


don’t expect
respect ! ( yourself )
don’t believe
retrieve ! (yourself)

cause ppl will come ppl will go
but its only u who stays with yourself
and only u  who stays for   yourself !!
so smile

cause even those bad days
have showed u the best ways !! J

Jno it isn't a love poem !!

n my day was made !! :D :D

i don't know what exactly gets me to write my post today , after being shut fr about more than three months but yes i have to write this.
This is a sweet little anecdote that i just couldn't resist my self when it came to sharing it.
before i actually begin let me just make it clear , that neither there is a moral lesson attached to it...and nor i can guarantee any humor (will try ). i have simply no clue why i am writing it...and pls do not expect anything grand.

i was going to my college like every other day with one of my closest friends. i was commuting by an auto ( a three wheeler vehicle )and was as usual stuck in a heavy traffic jam. as we moved a little forward we saw a heavy collection of all kinds of Chevrolets , marutis  , hondas and many more like we were at any auto expo and she in her usual excitement named every vehicle without an error.. for a second i felt ashamed of my general knowledge of cars. Here was a person who could completely differentiate between two cars and here was i who could only guess a 'scorpio' , 'versa' or 'omni ' and still feel proud !!! ( in a habbit of feeling proud of myself ) :P
that day was worse , had to reach fr the class , only 15 minutes in hand to make it to the class and not miss our attendance. ANy weirdo would have cried at that moment . ( here i clear that i am normal.. coz further u might think i am a lil insane.).
the bus route terminal was open that day.. and we thanked god for his mercy. so we moved on pitying the other people on the normal lane.
another red light and we stopped.
now as i looked across to see the perturbed passengers and feel blessed.. my eyes saw one passenger .. totally engaged ... with such serenity on the face.. and u just couldn't get ur eyes from that passenger.

YeS i am a teenager and i do look at other people too ( not just good looking guys ! c'mon ppl )

so that bubbly passenger was a little girl about 3-4 years of age.. so playful , soooooooo damn cute, so beautiful & with her killer smile she caught my attention.
and , no i never expected to exchange looks with her.. but she saw me or rather us.. but i wud like to use me.. coz my friend dint bother .. she was embarrassed.

EMBARRASSED !!!?? thinking why ??
well because of me .. coz i just could not control my self.. i felt like getting down that noisy shaky vehicle climb the barrier separating those roads and pick that little beauty in my hands !! take a hug and kiss her !! but that could not happen i realized..  what a scene that would create. NOt giving up .. i started doing stupid actions so that she wud smile once again just once again. WEll my friend she wasn't wrong to be embarrassed cause we were being watched . WHEN she couldn't stop me she hid her head behind her bag.. !!
But i just cant help it , these little kids fascinate me.. how they pick up things.. how they never lie..that is my escape from reality..!
After all that jokerish effort i finally got paid.!
SHE SMILED HER BEST SMILE..!!
and i was the reason..my day was made !!

if insanity can give u such rewards.. don't call me intelligent !! :)