bad days

Bad days J
gave u my favourite hair band blue and shiny
I thought things would always remain the same

 hands were numb and tiny
yet I put our picture in my hand made photo frame

 innocent was this heart – piece of cake for someone like u to tame
 and bam one day with your selfish words u ended this false game !

disappointed , disheartened but not hopeless
life couldn’t stop this 8 year old  child..
back to being lively , funny and reckless
 probably in the diabolic path of life - such scars are way too mild !

and then u came so sweet and docile ..
such calm eyes and lovely smile
thought probably you were worth the wait..
though you disappointed me too..
but u were one I could never hate..

but u went too
leaving me alone
and thus for ego our friendship was forgone

but life did not end
I found someone who easily could mend
those broken hearts which were shattered parts
and I thought we would never be apart

but ur repairing was for ur best use
being unaware of such views
told you everything that I couldn’t even say to myself
trusted u , cared for u, loved u  and changed myself..
hugged u cause it hurt me when u cried
forgetting that when last night because of your bitterness I nearly died

find ur names in between these line
you could be me or them and still be fine
probably someone killed your innocence someday
and ditched u and perhaps u never ready


don’t expect
respect ! ( yourself )
don’t believe
retrieve ! (yourself)

cause ppl will come ppl will go
but its only u who stays with yourself
and only u  who stays for   yourself !!
so smile

cause even those bad days
have showed u the best ways !! J

Jno it isn't a love poem !!

n my day was made !! :D :D

i don't know what exactly gets me to write my post today , after being shut fr about more than three months but yes i have to write this.
This is a sweet little anecdote that i just couldn't resist my self when it came to sharing it.
before i actually begin let me just make it clear , that neither there is a moral lesson attached to it...and nor i can guarantee any humor (will try ). i have simply no clue why i am writing it...and pls do not expect anything grand.

i was going to my college like every other day with one of my closest friends. i was commuting by an auto ( a three wheeler vehicle )and was as usual stuck in a heavy traffic jam. as we moved a little forward we saw a heavy collection of all kinds of Chevrolets , marutis  , hondas and many more like we were at any auto expo and she in her usual excitement named every vehicle without an error.. for a second i felt ashamed of my general knowledge of cars. Here was a person who could completely differentiate between two cars and here was i who could only guess a 'scorpio' , 'versa' or 'omni ' and still feel proud !!! ( in a habbit of feeling proud of myself ) :P
that day was worse , had to reach fr the class , only 15 minutes in hand to make it to the class and not miss our attendance. ANy weirdo would have cried at that moment . ( here i clear that i am normal.. coz further u might think i am a lil insane.).
the bus route terminal was open that day.. and we thanked god for his mercy. so we moved on pitying the other people on the normal lane.
another red light and we stopped.
now as i looked across to see the perturbed passengers and feel blessed.. my eyes saw one passenger .. totally engaged ... with such serenity on the face.. and u just couldn't get ur eyes from that passenger.

YeS i am a teenager and i do look at other people too ( not just good looking guys ! c'mon ppl )

so that bubbly passenger was a little girl about 3-4 years of age.. so playful , soooooooo damn cute, so beautiful & with her killer smile she caught my attention.
and , no i never expected to exchange looks with her.. but she saw me or rather us.. but i wud like to use me.. coz my friend dint bother .. she was embarrassed.

EMBARRASSED !!!?? thinking why ??
well because of me .. coz i just could not control my self.. i felt like getting down that noisy shaky vehicle climb the barrier separating those roads and pick that little beauty in my hands !! take a hug and kiss her !! but that could not happen i realized..  what a scene that would create. NOt giving up .. i started doing stupid actions so that she wud smile once again just once again. WEll my friend she wasn't wrong to be embarrassed cause we were being watched . WHEN she couldn't stop me she hid her head behind her bag.. !!
But i just cant help it , these little kids fascinate me.. how they pick up things.. how they never lie..that is my escape from reality..!
After all that jokerish effort i finally got paid.!
SHE SMILED HER BEST SMILE..!!
and i was the reason..my day was made !!

if insanity can give u such rewards.. don't call me intelligent !! :)

!!! college !!!

college !! well yeah...

A few months back when college was only an experience to see in  movies to now being a reality is something to look forward to !

A completely new experience ! An ultimate mixture of freedom and fear. ( to the readers who raise their threaded/ not threaded eyebrows to the max heights , fear here is only of shortage of attendance , submission of assignments and horrible internals , had one today..n i seriously don't want the result! ).
COLLEGE will be fascinating to every one who has read our school diary! seriously !

this brochure might interest u...

                                ~~~~   du tours and travelers ~~~~~
college is a desired destination for most of the students who are at school !! school children have been longing fr such a trip since they got there admission done!! du tours and travelers offrs u with unique specifications that will delite ur trip to college , also known as heaven on earth !! WE at du tours and travels ensure u get the best three yrears of ur life ::)

THE SALIENT FeATURES ARE :

1. On the first day u will be asked to come for an orientation !! which will be according to ur accommodation . These vary from the place u stay at. Some could have  cultural shows to some threatening u to death !

2. Semester System : we will show we are concerned. We will come talk to the board and leave...!! it is completely ur choice to study or not..latter one preferred! we will barge u with four jumbo sized books of something u will never be aware of.~! ul find it all Chinese !!wudnt that jus be great ..

3. SOme of them will give u full attendance !! come according to ur needs !
$. WEar what u want. at ur own risk.. we shall not be responsible fr the same . we think u r now old enough to take ur decisions !!
4. u will have loads of 'aankhmicholeees ' with ur seniors !! u r allowed to wink at ur own risk !
we shall not be held responsible!
5, roam around attend whichever class u want !! go sit in the canteen!! have a gala time...also relax at the campus if u wish..

6.CELLPHONES /all other gadgets ! ALLOWED ALLOWED ALLOWED !!

7. u can look fr ppl like u in class. since every one is new .. so doing friendship will never be a problem. dont be late , otherwise no one will entertain u as private stuff will only be shared on frst come frst serve

8. GIRLSS SPECIALLY ! u can do all ur make up... set Guinness record for growing longest nails ! no issue..
9. BOYS ! no comppulsion of short hair..go become RAPUNZELs !! all allowed

10. although this is asia's best place to be. but we r working on infrastructure still... oh sorry we have given up! just pray during an ongoing earthquake that ur college is safe!!

and many more awesome things in ur way to come...




also a special freshers party will be organized fr you .. sorry if we get late and u do not remain fresh anymore..

accommodations : according to our CUT- off package!!
pls dont wish for the sri ram hotel or venky hotel it might jus bankrupt u !!!
see you soon
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   du tours and travelers ~~~~~~~~~    :D

* valid to most colleges , content gathered. not a specific college :P
  

the school life !!!

Ask the big shots all they say that school was the best part of their time on earth! why not ?? u met ur first crush there dint u?? ha!!! alright alright not just that probably but a lot more!

A few days back when i visited my school ( mind u i might sound like some aged writer , who left school around centuries ago but  i am a recent pass out)  with so much of enthusiasm to meet my teachers & juniors, with my gang , the following things took place :

 1. felt awkward without my uniform

 2. got to sit in the canteen during school hours... felt so cool abt it :P 

3.got killed by words- yess that murdering word called 'pass out' - and i felt like-hello its just been a month don't dispose us so easily!!! 

Well, i might make it funny n stuff but in reality it is literally a pain !! I asked my elder sister a few years ago that how did she feel when she passed out, she said it was the same feeling that she had while she was leaving our place after marriage. The feeling of losing all contacts, leaving a place where you have been coming for the most years of ur life, having sibling like friends who gave u shoulders to cry on and laughed out louder at every   

happy point in ur life.

( hey i can write senti stuff!! boo ya who say i cant )

and so i say 

BLUEBELLS I MISS YOU !!!

the irony lies in the fact that the funniest things that happened in school probably will make us cry at some point later in our lives !!! for eg.

 @ the first day of my school was strange as i dint feel like entering in a building as tall as bbs' , i had this fear that it will fall down as soon as i will enter. i was soo scared that i clung to my dad

 and refused to go in

@ the times i had made a fool out of my self on stage - BLUE HOUSE's prefects' courtsey - askin my friend and me to do the compeering just a day before the show !! thnxx for the opportunity ppl , it was an experience of sheer foolishness and nobody cud make it perfect for us, but you.

@ the annual days : getting to spend an entire day with ur class , getting reaady for performances awards and much more!! having a gala time all day after ur practice was done. always making plans to bunk the grand finale and never succeeding .

@ ur close friends with whom you played pranks , provided them with the nightmares of their life !! the FLAMES GAME - THE TRUTH AND DARE - THE PEN FIGHTS in the library !!
@ updating the hard disk of ur body with latest songs.. printing the lyrics getting ur tone right and singing to the top of ur voice!! yeah!! all this we goT up on our sleeves coz there was this new radio station that had come 95 fm and we went crazy over it!!! trying to noe every song that played there !!! i remember how v got the lyrics of the song ' gasolina ' -which was a Spanish rap no. -printed and tried to memorize it ..until we got to noe wat it meant and halted !!ahem ahem!!!

@ the never on time assignments , the roaming around in school !! prefectorial workshops and meetings !!WOW!! the 11th hr hustle bustle of the assemblies and word of the day !!! 

moments of pride and sadness!! 

school life is just so complete !!!! :)

to b continued ............:)!!

saree , soaps and stars !!!! ( part two )

Back by popular demand 

Now pop a little Zantac or ant'-acid if you can 
You're ready to tackle any task that is at hand 
How does it feel, is it fantastic, is it grand? .............
                                                          - eminem


i decided to start  the second part of this with eminem's lines because of 2 reasons. 
no.1 - out of content
no.2 - forced to write ( so i am back by popular demand ) 
n0.3 - no topic as usual :)
( yup i give one extra as a free gift )n
so after the the actress, location , cries and soud effects ... how can one forget something known as the time period !!!
i mean c'mon man... u take ur story a thousand yrs forward and all you get are a pair of glasses and only a streak of grey hair??  
u sleep with ur saree on with all the make up and jewellery ?? why , do you have to go for a picnic in ur dreamzzzzz!! ??
why does every hero in the story have to be a business man?? with gr8 companies??? and why does the biggest fraud always have to be ur best friend?? 
i sometimes feel how can ppl stand the same cry of tulsi , parvati, maheshwari, jamnawati and wat all names !!same story, based on love , fight and SAAS BAHU stuff!!
even the comedy shows , why , is comedy always attached to vulgar stuff?? look in ur life u have all the treasure there to laugh n be happy !!!
commercials 
 some commercials for eg make me laugh:


have you ever wondered in every antiseptic soap ad : 
there are two school children one of them will fall ill or on the ground , the other child's mum is always a doctor n will be wiser than the other mum!!
also one of the brands has green clothes always, why wen ppl use ur product they get this sudden addiction to green color? m not buying it !!!


also isn't it stupid that wen it comes for doing something fr the family.. all of it.. there is a hue n cry in this wrld ...but u can still do kuch bhi for a candyman!
or fr that matter one guy jumps of  a cliff just because his girl throws the bottle of a soft drink ( thmbs up) in a valley and he has to follow it ?? yes , do taste the thunder like a fool, when the container has one extra bottle kept! in it !! so the conclusion is ??? u become insane wen u drink it and lose rationality ?? haha
thats it ...


cant critisize more !!! i hav to answer my soul :P:P:P

saree , soaps and stars !!!!

The high heels reaching to the height of the everest ,  shown when the foot comes out of the great Indian Lamborghini...the never ending long streak of sindooor , the too godly Sareeee ( my mom wont think of wearing it generally) and the make up( do i need to describe , eh)!!! 

NO!NO! i am not here to criticize the daily soaps!!! not at all... plss do watch them... !!  cause if u really want the best medicine which is laughter, its all hidden like a diamond in a coal mine !! lets chk out the various aspects !! 

THE ACTRESS!!! 

every actress in the daily soaps does not need OLAY total effects!!! no matter how rich or how poor or how old or how young , they neva eva get the signs of ageing!! 

Every serial has a protagonist who will :

*never ever lie...

*have a direct contact with god, n god too is so partial ...

*keep suffering even though rationally she might have 1000 alternatives to solve the problems

*be representative of at least one goddess

*not know how to lie, because her husband wud say ' tume jhooth nai bolna ata '

adding on to the misery ......
i sometimes feel, that either these women have just robbed a jeweler or they frequently take a dive like Disney's uncle scrooge  in his heap of coins!! hahaha....man the amount of jewelery they have , changing everyday, all matches !! amazing


location
they stay in delhi, but is there a beach here?
they live in the remotest of villages but dude hve the most high class awesome cellphone!! full on electricity... i had a power cut for 3 hrs!! i am jealous!!
they alll walk on the same path. the same road that has valleys on both side  wen depressed... delhi, mumbai , pune ,Varanasi !! everywhere...the road will never change!! with wind ..and rain leaving the actress all wet!
each production will kill at least one member on that big valley area!! :P:P






LIGHTS and sounds!!
another amazing aspect !! 
one slap shown about a hundred times , so much of zoooming!!!
falling thunder on each and everyones head !! so many times.... worst showing lightening and thunder together ( failing the laws of nature )


everlasting cry 


either we should be awarded for using max. glycerin...
or be banned for wasting natural resources




biggest addictors.. man ppl do cry with them!!! as if they wernt enough!!! 






THIS IS HOW I DEFINE EXTRACTING ENTERTAINMENT  FROM THE EVER SOO BORING DAILY SOAPS !!!! :D:D :D


so if spending tym with mum means accompanying her fr a show!! pallleeeezzz ! do try this at home!!  

EMOTIONAL DISASTER!!! :P:P

my confrontation with the wrst friends of all time !!!!


i am sorry guys but i had to tell you this one day !!! i noe this is an electric shock but i cant help it coz ur the wrst things happened to me in my most amazing times of life !!! u guys noe i am so two faced....


i know after Wat gunjan wrote the heart love u all stuff, but u see imma gandhi right ... so i cant lie... but u guys certainely dont deserve that !!!


i was so loving the atmosphere of my class with no one talking to me, totally stranded at the time wen i most needed someones help, when the supposedly my best frnd gave me an amazing ditch.... oh those beautiful nights which gave me the plsr of crying ....all this showing me how amazingly wrong decision maker i was...how splendidly i had failed to keep up my decision of changing to commerce..like a warrior i had fought for it... achieving wins by losing everything !!....
SO weN i was goin thru pulchritudinous times as such....


THE THree witches of macbeth enter my life....offering me their friendshp....which embarked the beginning of my worst two years of life.....at this point of time how soundly broken i was...but they had to bring back the life in me,,,,how rude is that,!!!

how foolishly i trusted my frnd sarika to get into the group .... she calling me her bst frnd after ages made me so mad that it was such a torture ... i had neva been dying fr this trst me, since class 4 neva..;).....her so called humourous talks ...too boring.... giving a girl those overstretched smiles...who just loved frowning....i loved being the frown devta...and wat more this monster accompanied me to all my tuitions .. it was all the punishment of my some good karma....so much two write this shana shakeel..a.k.a gundi of our group.. i had named her...so apt.. but it was 'unluckily' that she was neva fr the namesake...tooo swt at hrt.. oh hw opposite to me...!!


THE next gurl in the group, total drama queen!! miss richa gupta.....such a talented actress.....somebuddy shuld tell her that talent is just so ewww these days ...she was too good at it.... "bechari.. karmo ki marrii" wat a brilliant actress..my heroine... no attitude.. ever ready to help.... kept the group together.....ever smiling...complete...opportunist.... knew wat was the importance of skul life...aahhh i hate her :P:P:P






the last witch, most philosophical of them all.....crazy creature .. could tell wat you are just by lookin in ur eyes............... total psycho... transformation ki dukaan... the lover witch...one day she walks in with hair open shirt out of her skirt... man wat a change... how beautiful she looked ... but i still hate all her observations abt me wer soo to the point......


but not everything was bad, some good stuff...
1.that day when richa cried... hw good i flt seeing her in tears
2. wenever gunjan n sarika fought my day was made.. i never tried to solve their probs
some bad stuff:
1..wenever they tried to ignore but their hearts never allowed ... n talked just soo normally even after i acted like a retard
2.. they loved me for who i was.. probably they could understand me the best n never enforced ny kinda peer pressure....  
3. gav me the best of school years






i am not scared to write this.... coz best frnds we are,,, i noe ul take this in wrong terms ... i want u too.. so that u get wats right how much u mean to this silly .. moral lover gurl ( btw this is true)...


n ya how cud i forget......


I SO COMPLETELY HATE YOU :P:P:P:P !!!!




bahut ho gaya <3 u guys!! miss u...
i can write fr ages.. but gunjan is just too impatient..
apologies for gramatical mistakes... its an emotional disaster :P:P